You Vs. You ( Get Out of the Way!)

Lord, how did I get to this place?

I have found that a lot of the times, my struggles and pain stem from my own doing: my own hard-headiness and deliberate ignoring of the word and revelation of God.

There comes a time in our lives when we know that we can choose not subject ourselves to things, people, relationships, etc.. because we know they are not good for us. They only bring us misery and confusion. But yet we still choose to involve ourselves, why?

Well, one answer is fear and self-destruction. I am a firm believer that we are all equipped with the ability and knowledge to engineer our worlds to be beautiful. To make decisions that not only benefit us individually, but to also make decisions that better the world around us.

What hinders us from growing into the beautiful beings that God created us to be is our fear to let go of our past, experiences, and negative societal norms. We then let ourselves sink into our sorrow and allow it to permeate every aspect of our lives and debilitate all happiness and faith.

 In the fabrics of sorrow and depression,  lie sin, evil, and all things associated with it. And our exposure to these vile things leads to the unwanted rooting of darkness within ourselves and honestly, a development of self-hate.

There have been many seasons in which I found myself conceding to negative thoughts, moods, and habits... and succeeding them, I found myself feeling empty and alone. Nothing that I tried to do, could fill the void of the darkness I had created within myself. From believing I wasn't good enough when it comes to my academic ability to misjudgment of relationship will ill-intentioned men, I had convinced myself that I was no longer worthy.

What really helped me heal after these seasons was my admittance of the role I played in my own self-destruction. I had to inwardly reflect on what tendencies and thoughts pushing me into dark places. I discovered I tried to do things my own way without turning to God for any guidance.

I shut God out of my life completely, and the subsequent seasons were some of the most painful seasons I've gone through.

Looking back, I see that I had failed to realize that I am a child of God. And even in the most confusing of times, God's love, his word, and his message are clear: in times of pain turn to God for strength.


Fear is a form of bondage. Don't be afraid to continue pushing after you've made mistakes. God is with you no matter what point of your journey you're at.


"For once you were full of darkness, but now you have light from the Lord.  So live as people of                                             light." - Ephesians 5:8 NLT
                                                              

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